||[May. 16th, 2007|01:21 pm]
I didn't go to school today. I only have like two weeks left, but for some reason I don't want to go. My new school is amazing, my US History teacher used to be a punk, my music teacher is like 50 and a homosexual. I just love the people there, but yet I don't want to go? My parents asked me this morning if I wanted to get off zoloft, but I have a feeling it would make things bad again. I cant wait for the air conditioning people to leave, so i can just smoke and fall asleep...and not worry. I've been a pessimist lately, when it comes to the scene. It seems like everyone is going through the whole "TOTALLY PR!" phase. Ever since CPAC got shut down, our shows have not been filled with heart or passion anymore. Just random guys/girls showing up to get some ass or something. I really dislike piradical productions, just because they keep going back on their words, and making themselves look like total lameasses. Like, what won me over with Stephen when I first met him, he had the whole package. He was a christian, but not a strict one...he said that after shows, kids that had nowhere to go would stay over at his place and pass out in his basement with a pyramid of beer cans. Now, he's against drinking, and you have to pay 100 a month to him to sleep in his fuckin closet. Also, they're starting their own little police force there, it's basically politics, even though Stephen supposibly believes in Anarchy. Fuck that. I just can't wait to get out of Indiana. I'm 17 going on 18, no job, no liscense, a car that I can't drive, still in school...i'm a failure. I don't want a job, if I do..I want it to be flexible...so I can still travel, and I don't want assholes for managers like I did at goodwill. whatever, i'll shut up. here's pictures.